Life, the Universe and Everything...

Its a simple answer, 42, the question still alludes us. In all reality though, the questions to our lives are simple, what do we want, what will make us happy, how do you go about getting that? To figure out these questions and to truly analyze them takes both patience and intelligence. I've spent a lot of my short life trying to figure these things out, I've spent time analyzing why I enjoy certain activities, what that says about myself.

The biggest thing I look for within all aspects of my life is how challenging it is to me intellectually. I enjoy to have my view thrown into questions, and I enjoy figuring out how it fits within the social structure of our lives. If I have something set before me that will cause me to challenge myself, then I tend to be happy and enjoy it. I have found that most people seem to shy away from this, they want life to be simple, easy and enjoyable. I think it is unfortunate that this view is held, although I can relate too it. I do find though that an easy life would be enjoyable, I doubt it would have fulfillment. When placed with any sort of problem, I tend to apply myself to the fullest extent at solving this. I know what must be done, I spend the time figuring this out. Although I do not follow through with it all the time, that doesn't mean I don't understand the concept and what must be done.

I've recently had a personal experience in my life that has opened my eyes to this lack of critical and deep thinking. The reasoning behind actions shows a lack of intelligence and emotionally maturity that surprised me was not there. I enjoy the fact I am a human, and that I have been gifted with the ability to imagine, and to create and question. I had been put under the impression that what I was doing was the correct actions, was appreciated and was admired. It was until too late that I learned they were not, and it left me feeling abused. The fact I was made out to be the bad guy in all of this only shows that my view of things to be the correct one. When my reaction is treated as though I ignore reality and I am overly abusive shows an inability to analyze their own view point, that some how, because I point out the flaw within their own thinking I am the one rejecting reality.

I put forth an effort in my life I try to inspire in those around me. I hope those close to me see the effort I put forth, and the improvements I make to myself, no matter how small. I know I have room for improvement, I would like to believe I know what those things are. I believe that by at least knowing, I have the power to begin the process of change.